Thanksgiving Blues

It is Thanksgiving, and oddly enough there are so many places I would rather be then where i am now. I want to be in New York working at a soup kitchen. Helping to feed the people who need such a bountiful meal more then me. I want to be driving somewhere...anywhere but here and adventuring, not having a worry in the world except where the next gas station is...and whether or not my CD mixes will get old. This is how I would love to spend my thanksgiving but I am stuck here in this void where I am being suffocated by the haunting of Thanksgiving past as we try to bring that feeling back. That feeling is gone and i have no desire to get it back. I want to start new traditions and create new feelings.  Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

Just some Thoughts

I get this overwhelming urge to write. To empty my head on the paper, but I know that if I were to even try to do that, I would be writing for the rest of my life. And sometimes...the thoughts dont come out that easy. I want to teach myself how to be bold. I am very aware of my mortality. And it seems every day I realize a little more how one moment now may not matter ten years from now...maybe even ten days. I want to tell people exactly how I feel. But there is a part of me that is still scared...scared of what? The rejection...the judgment..the looks of disapproval. But seriously what does it matter? No matter what people are gonna view you differently. Though one person may seem to disapproval...some people may be proud and envious of you. They will all most likely be envious. Everyone is envious of confidence. I also want to post this online. And let people read it...but these are my own thoughts, and to post them would make me vulnerable. But maybe I need to be vulnerable. I have an open heart. It is so very east to come into it. Anyone is welcome. And anyone can hurt me. I get hurt easily and some people I know feel pity for me. They shouldn’t though. This is who I am.

something i found :)

The greatest irony of life is loving the right person at the wrong time, having the wrong person when the time is right and finding out you love someone after that person walks out from your life and sometimes you think you’re already over a person but when you see them smile at you, you’ll suddenly realize that you’re just pretending to be over them just to ease the pain of knowing that they will never be yours again. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much you love the person. Most relationships tend to fail not because the absence of love; love is always present. It’s just the one was being loved too much and the other was being loved too little as we all know that the heart is the center of the body but it beats on the left. Maybe that’s the reason why the heart is not always right. Most often we fall in love with the person we think we love only to discover that for them, we are just for past times, while the one who truly loves us remains either a friend or a stranger. Here’s a piece of advice: let go when you’re hurting too much, give up when love isn’t enough and move on when things are not like before. There is someone out there who will love you even more, surely then, you will know true love ~ anonymous

Hey people, I know i have not posted anything in a while and i want to apologize. For those people who actually do read my blog I truly appreciate your views.  So thank you for your time :)
 

“We spend money that we do not have, on things we do not need, to impress people who do not care.”
― Will Smith

So it is coming to the end of the second month since i created this blog! I cant believe it is already almost March. It has also been a very big month for me :) I got my license, saw some family who i haven't seen in at least 2 years. and i graduated (for the most part) from physical therapy!. I am also slowly and steadily working towards my healthy body goal and my next stop is Yoga. Not that anyone really cares but hey I'm proud of myself.

now for a few heart felt words, 

along with the good fortunes of this month there have been some no so good fortunes. My sister lost some of her beloved animals and just when we thought it was going to be a continuous spiral down we were gifted with this precious baby. His name is Famian and he is a very handsome boy. this photo was taken only a few hours after he was born so he looks a bit weak but now he is playful as can be and adds a warmth to barn and gives us hope that spring will come quickly.

Isnt it nice to know that even when it seems like things are never gonna get better there is always some form of beauty that shows up and makes it all seem worthwhile? well that's what I Love about life. Happy February to everyone! ^_^

so lately i have been trying to get my body back on track. Trying to lose the weight i gained and get my muscles into shape. It has been an interesting journey so far and i have indeed backtracked a few times but it has been a lot of help having a supporting group around me. It was also a nice surprise when i found out i was a 7/8 and not a 10/12 in pant size. but anyway here is an image i thought was perfect for this little entry here. I loved the Harry Potter series and the movies weren't to bad so i have decided that next time i watch this movie, i am totally doing this work out ~ Butterfly Free

I absolutly love this song :)

Better Days lyrics

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And designer love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I need someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child who saved this world

And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again
Cause tonight's the night the world begins again

Romantic Comedies?

Tonight I watched the movie "you've got mail" with Meg Ryan (one of my favorite actresses) and Tom Hanks (another one of my favorite actors) and it was a very good movie. I found myself analyzing why i watch romantic comedies. Often i get teased for my attraction to them. Its not that I am on the edge of my seat while watching them or that im even excited about the storyline. I mean they are all basically the same. But i love the way romantic comedies always work out. It gives me hope that somewhere in the world people are actually falling in love like that. Such movies always have the ideal love story and im a sap for it. I mean there are those romantic comedies that dont have the ideal ending like "500 days of summer" but they are still amazing. and they make me happy. so that is the reason i like watching romantic comedies

Feel Good Song ^_^

Winter Wonderland

Quote of the day

People are just people they shouldn't make you nervous ~ Regina Spektor

carbon copies

Something i have realized more and more in life, is the way so many people strive to be so different from everyone else. They fight to be different, unique and exquisite. and i could never figure out why. I couldn't even figure out how. I mean the harder they tried, the more like everyone else they became. same clothing, same speech, same "quirky" interests. It wasn't until now that i really understood the answer to the fight so many people go through. The only way you will ever be different is if you stop trying to be either like people or not like people. You will only become unique when you accept yourself and strive to be yourself, to you know yourself. Everyone makes mistakes, everyone embarrasses themselves and at some point in life make themselves feel completely idiotic. And you have to understand you cannot hate these parts about yourself, you have got to love them. love yourself. because that is the only way you will ever achieve the ideal person you wish to be. DO NOT allow your self to become a carbon copy

i feel these 2 songs go hand in hand ^_^

typical but true

The thing about life is, you cant sit around waiting for it to happen. You have to try and make it happen, you have to enjoy every possible moment. Revel in every emotion that goes through your body and don't regret anything. Don't wake up in the morning saying, "ugh I'm dreading today" Cuz if you wake up dreading the day you are gonna have a bad day. And maybe you don't always have  a good day when you have the best intentions but that is just another part of life. Often when i am upset or having a bad day, my boyfriend will notice and worry about me. I repeatedly tell him its okay and that i will be okay. and he always tells me he hates to see me upset but, honestly? its just another part of living. the pain the sadness the anger and joy are all parts of who were are and and who were are becoming. it echos who we have been in the past along with the people from our past and present and there is nothing we can really do except appreciate it all to its fullest.

Quote of the day

Just grasp my hands and pull me up for ive fallen down and i believe im stuck. You gave me a hope when i thought all was dark, and now thanks to you i know its just  strangers walking by in the park.

Sometimes

Sometimes it feels as if the walls are caving in, sometimes it feels as if the hardest thing to do is to take that next step and sometimes its all i can do to just breath. But to falter? No I will myself to hold on, so i hold my head high and continue on because the world is still spinning

One day - Matisyahu

sometimes I lay
under the moon
and thank God I'm breathing
then I pray
don't take me soon
cause I am here for a reason
sometimes in my tears I drown
but I never let it get me down
so when negativity surrounds
I know some day it'll all turn around
because
all my life I've been waiting for
I've been praying for
for the people to say
that we don't wanna fight no more
they'll be no more wars
and our children will play
one day x6
it's not about
win or lose cause
we all lose
when they feed on the souls of the innocent
blood drenched pavement
keep on moving though the waters stay raging
in this maze you can lose your way (your way)
it might drive you crazy but don't let it faze you no way (no way)
sometimes in my tears I drown
but I never let it get me down
so when negativity surrounds
I know some day it'll all turn around
because
all my life I've been waiting for
I've been praying for
for the people to say
that we don't wanna fight no more
they'll be no more wars
and our children will play
one day x6
one day this all will change
treat people the same
stop with the violence
down with the hate
one day we'll all be free
and proud to be
under the same sun
singing songs of freedom like
one day x4
all my life I've been waiting for
I've been praying for
for the people to say
that we don't wanna fight no more
they'll be no more wars
and our children will play
one day x6
ooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

Quote of the day

Failure and Perfection are merely a frame of mind ~ Anonymous

Essence of Childhood

As I have grown older one thing i realize that i will never be able to say is that i had a bad childhood. I am proud of this. I had one of the best child hoods someone could wish for. I do not say this to brag but to merely state a fact. I was raised with warmth and happiness. I remember those long summer days playing outside with my siblings as long as the sun was up. Running back and forth screaming shouting and having a blast. Completely submersed in our own magical made up worlds, My siblings and I were able to travel the entire world without ever leaving out back yard. 

           Now what makes me sad to see, is how many children, especially in the newest generations will never have such a child hood. Not because the are restricted or have no opportunities, but because they are not given the breathing room to experience their own imagination. Their own power to create a world merely from their mind. Movies, video games and television shows take these opportunities away from these children. Causing little girls to want to be beauty queens at the age of five and boys to want to be as rough and "manly" as all the movies show. 

    I believe it would be absolutely wonderful to see more children playing outside. Coming in for the night exhausted from all the adventures they have gone on in their afternoons. Covered from head to toe with the day they have experienced.  For the life that is created with such is more powerful and more uplifting then any movie video game or television show can ever grant them.

Watch your thoughts; they become words.

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character.

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
- - Frank Outlaw

The beauty of the first snow...so mystifying

Quote of the day

"And people make you nervous
You'd think the world is ending,
And everybody's features have somehow started blending
And everything is plastic,
And everyone's sarcastic,
And all your food is frozen,
It needs to be defrosted."

-Regina Spektor

Forever and ever amen - Randy Travis

Those who love you are not fooled by mistakes you have made or dark images you hold about yourself. They remember your beauty when you feel ugly; your wholeness when you are broken; your innocence when you feel guilty; and your purpose when you are confused.

• Author: Alan Cohen

Quote of the day

I’ve always said that in politics, your enemies can’t hurt you, but your friends will kill you.
- Ann Richards

Its a joke! a joke!

Whats Brown and Sticky??????


A stick! hahahaha

Ultimate Nachos

Ingrediants:
Large bag Tortilla chips
Salsa Con Queso dip (your choice of Spiciness)
Your choice of any shredded cheeses
Ground Beef taco meat
Sour Cream
Pepperoni
9x12" baking dish

Additional/ Varied Ingredients:
Olives
Diced tomatoes
lettuce
Salsa
And any other toppings the cook desire

Prep Directions: Preheat oven to 300ºF. On the bottom of your pan put a layer of Tortilla chips to your desired amount. Proceed to layering the Con Quaso dip, Shredded Cheese, Ground beef and Pepperoni to desired amount on top of the Layer of Tortilla chips. Continue this Layering process until you have reached your desired amount of layers or until you have run out of materials

Prepped Dish

 Place Layered Nachos into oven for 10 to 15 minutes, checking regularly to see if the shredded cheese has melted.
When The Nachos have finished cooking, you may use the sour cream as either a topping or a cooling dip for these delicious nachos Bon Appétit.
                                                            

  Finished Dish